No More Dilema :)

Today I canceled my E Harmony account :) I never did pay. I was mainly curious to see what they sent me. I ended up with some 65 matches I believe it was....but there were not many that really did anything for me. As a non paying member you can not see pictures or respond to any questions sent to you. But just going off of what they matched me with and reading the profiles of those people I have little faith in the site. I Do know that I may not be able to trust my own instincts when it comes to dating. They haven't done so well for me so far, but I also know that I can not and do not want to date someone that doesn't like children or sports or music. Those seem to be the profiles that they routed in my direction. Makes no sense to me...but whatever...i'm over it. Back to regular meeting people....bars and grocery stores...lol.

On another note...Osgood is in the net tonight :) Must go watch me some hockey :)

Holiday Thoughts :)

The holidays can be very emotional for many many people. For some it is a very stressful and negative time of the year. They bring on so much stress and such anxious feelings that they begin to freak out a month in advance. Some people are very happy and overjoyed to be able to spend the holidays with their loved ones. Others just coast through apathetically waiting for the turkey and ham. Regardless of how you cope and how you feel, the holidays are hear. So break out the booze, Valium, and self help book. Grab a hold of your ass and get prepared!

I was thinking today.....wondering what to buy for Christmas for all the people I must shop for, and I thought that I wanted to do something different. I don't want to buy the same old same old this year. So I set off and did a little Google search for odd items...lol. Yeah, I thought it would be fun to order some t-shirts. Like my best friend...for whatever reason...always says "Jimmy cracked corn." I don't know why she does it but it just pops into her speech at random times. I think I need to order her an obnoxiously colored shirt that says it right on the chest...lol. For my son...of course the standard "Huh? What? I didn't hear you." I swear that kid needs a hearing aid! I think for my ex maybe one that says " Child Support? Oh yeah- I forgot!" and wrap it up from the kids...lol Ok, well that one may be a little over the top and mean...but it sure would be funny :)

Anyway, it's Thanksgiving-- The turkey is a mere shadow of who it once was and the desserts have been rummaged. One down, just a month to go till the next day of drama...YaY Holidays! ;)

Oh the Tigers--

I am just gonna take a minute here to say a couple things about the Detroit Tigers. First thing--Love em :) Second thing-- Love em :) Third thing Todd Jones, $7 million, one season? Ummmm... Thats a whole bunch of cash for one season! Don't get me wrong, I appreciate his career and his pitching ability. I am aware that he has gotten us out of a few tough spots. I am also aware that he has not been the best closer the Tigers have ever seen. I know that a huge part of the reason he was offered this is because of my love, Joel Zumaya, and his unfortunate injury. Zumaya was planned to be our future closer pending Jones leaving the Tigers. I just wonder if we really had to sign Jones to this deal just because of Joel. Is there no one else that we could have rounded up to close for us?

On another note, I am slightly saddened by the trade of Omar Infante for Jaques Jones. I am totally sure that Jaques will be an asset to the team, but I enjoyed watching Omar play. Loved being at Comerica and hearing his name called as he came up to bat :)

So thats my Tiger rant for the day :) I am sure there will be more to come :)

In The Mood :)

I am completely sure that I am not the only person that has a passion for music. I hate to say that I am not musically inclined in any sense of the phrase, but I am not. Other than a short stint in choir in 4th, 5th, and 6th grade and an attempt to play the saxophone in 6th grade, I am making music challenged.

I believe that music in general is a saving grace for me. I know that I can change my mood, emotion, and general daily well being with a few songs. I feel like I "feel" music differently than other people do. It is a huge part of my well being. If I didn't have it, I don't know if I could make it through some days. I hear it in my dreams, I wake up with a song stuck in my head and it becomes my theme for the day. I can change it if I don't like where it is going to take me just by finding a couple songs to "feel" for the day. I know that if I have something that I am sad about I can speed that process by a few weepy songs or if I am feeling particularly bitchy I can turn it around with something fun.

You may be wondering by now where the hell im going with this.......well as I said in my last post, I entered myself into the "Dating Lottery"lol. Here is my point-- I haven't paid for this service yet, as I am not sure I want to. I read some of these "so called matches" that they send me and I see that there are actually people that have no passion for music. I can not get my head around this! I wish someone could explain this to me so I can understand it and maybe not think that there is something wrong with these people that don't have a passion for music

I really don't understand how you can not be moved by an amazing guitar riff or empowered drum solo. I give so much credit to anyone that can make music or play an instrument! I am sure it is because I can't, but whatever, I guess it just makes me appreciate it that much more. As I type this blog I am pumping a little John Butler Trio into my headphones as I want to have an upbeat day and need to get some things accomplished. If you haven't checked them out, I suggest you do! Even if it isn't your style of music you can appreciate the work that has gone into their music. That is of course if you are not one of the people from eHarmony that have no comprehension of music in general...lol How is it that people don't have a theme song? I have lots of them depending on my mood of course. I have a song that reminds me of every person in my life. Every bad date, ex boyfriend, and magical moment in my life has a tune to it. I can hear it when I think about the event or person. When I hear the song it takes me back to that person, place, or time.

For example-- I have one ex, if he bothered to read this he would know it was him I am talking about. Everytime I here What if you and Starmile by Joshua Radin I have a flood of memories of him and our past. My high school memories and my girls I used to run around with are wrapped in a few songs like Juicy by Oaktown 357 and anything by Too Short...lol..We were crazy :) My parents have music that will always remind me of them. I have a memory of dancing around the living room at the age of 4 to the Beach Boys and my Dad standing at the record player laughing at me :) Anything Leon Russell reminds me of my Mom since she was the first to introduce me to him. You see what I am saying. Music captures a memory for me. If you are not that person that is driven by a song or moved by an artist, consider trying it. I think it can make you a deeper person, it can soothe your soul, and give you a life long coping mechanism. Just a thought :)

Dating Dilema!

Alright so as some of you who have read anything I have written either on my MySpace page or on my Associated Content page you will realize that I am dating retarded apparently :) I tried the whole Yahoo deal and wow what a mess that was....scary people...lol. So someone mentioned to me that I should check out eHarmony. I don't know anymore....Is a dating site a realistic way to meet someone? I checked out eHarmony last night and took their 14 million question test and it came up with 7 matches within 60 miles of me. I am trying to figure out what kind of odds those are. 7 whole men? Am I too picky or is this a normal amount? I realize that this site is supposed to be much more in depth than Yahoo but my lord, 7?

I didn't really think that I was that difficult of a person. On most occasion I am fairly nice and pleasant. I am funny like 90% of the time. I am pretty laid back. Here is what gets me....I didn't think I was asking much during the eHarmony test by requiring that my matches be hygienic, non-cheaters, that are not Rage infested. Is it so much to ask that someone place some kind of value on taking a shower and not beating me up? How about asking that they be loyal and not drug addicted, is that alot to ask?

So of the whole 7 there were 2 that seemed interesting. This is code for they could type a full sentence and use the spell check option :) I am not looking for the next Einstein, just someone that knows that you put a freaking space between words and that you need to punctuate when you finish a thought. Maybe I AM looking for more than is realistic. I just don't know if I should pay to join a site that only seems to have 2 possible matches on the first time around. I don't know if they will become more precise in the matches or not.

So I can not actually communicate with these gentlemen until I pay.........Hmmmmmm...Decisions Decisions ;)

FitFlops! Workout of the Future?????

So a couple days ago I came across an article on a shoe called a "FitFlop". Ok, I know sounds weird, right? Maybe you have heard of it before, maybe not, but for me it was a first. I am not going to go into great detail about what it is, I mean come on, they aren't paying me, but I did want to make mention of it. I want to try it! I see after going to their site that they claim that this shoe is a workout for your legs and rear. "Nice" I thought to myself. Who couldn't use a little toning on the backside right? Anyway, i'm not going to get into my poor workout habits, but I thought it might be nice to try.

I then thought--- "I wish I would have heard about these in the summer" I mean it's Michigan and they are calling for snow tomorrow. I guess I could wear them around the house, Oh Oh or maybe get some of those dorky toe socks...lol

Anyway, they are kinda cute to look at and after reading some reviews may be worth a shot! I am not excited to think that I would have to pay upwards of 50 bucks to get some, so I will watch for a sale and keep my eye out on EBay for that person that maybe lists them incorrectly :)

Here is to perky Backsides and toned calves :)

Finally We may be a Contender!!

Yes I am a woman! Yes I have kids! Yes I like to craft! Yes I like to cook! Yes I LOVE when the Lions Blow some Broncos out of the Water!!!! I am minutes away from the city of Detroit and it is hard sometimes to sit by and watch your hometown team be defeated over and over and over again, year after year. I have been a fan and will stay a fan even when they lose, but today they made me happy to say "I am a Lions fan."

What an impressive game! They didn't let up and Kitna was like a little God today! We dropped a 44-7 bomb today and I am sure that the football world is now taking notice and wondering WTH happened. Thats ok with me :)

Just wanted to share a little of my football happiness with you all on this beautiful Sunday :)

GO LIONS!!

Ebay Foot Fetish Weirdos!!

Alright, so I have some stuff listed on Ebay that I want to get rid of. Just some old kids clothes and stuff. So anyway- I was talking to my Mom last night and we were talking about these WigWam socks that we used to have that we stole from my Dad years and years ago. Here in Michigan it is starting to get cold and I thought about it and decided that I would see if I could locate any of said socks on Ebay. I was hoping to find some person that had some locked away in some old trunk somewhere with the tags still on and that they were completely clueless as to what they had tucked away.

What did I find? I found a handful of women selling extremely used socks!!! They had like 10 pictures of old nasty socks on their auction! Did I mention that the socks were still on their feet and that they were doing strange things with them? How about that one pair had five days left on the bidding and they were already up to $23. That the bidder was private! Now I have heard of people with a foot fetish-I'm not completely clueless, but 20 some dollars for excessively used socks?

Now I am a firm believer in to each their own--- But I never expected to find a foot fetish ring on Ebay. I'm just surprised and a little weirded out I guess....Oh Well- Doesn't effect me directly, so I guess it's all relative :)

ChaCha

Have you ever heard of ChaCha? Ok, well if you haven't it is a new search engine that is about a year old. If I have done my research correctly it is the only one that offers a live person to help you find stuff when you get stuck. You know what I mean-- when you are looking for that all to important information about lipstick or maybe about lead paint. Who knows what you will be looking for, but sometimes you just can't seem to locate it. Well on ChaCha you can Instant Message with a real LIVE person to help you find it. Well I am going to be one of those real live people :) I am excited! I think it will be fun and I will also get a chance to help a few people out along the way.. Oh yeah-- did I say I will get paid for it too :)

Well wish me luck- I take my second test today to see exactly where I fit in to their guide plan- who and how I can help :) Yay for me! Im just putting that out there cuz no one else seems to give much of a crap and I thought I would congratulate myself...LOL

Thats all for now, I will post later on how I did so I can give myself some kudos for my effort...lol

Autumn Crafts for kids!

For those of us that have children that like to craft, Autumn is a great time to utilize what nature has given us to work with. I know my son loves to make things and enjoys using nature to do it! I wanted to share a few of our favorite crafts with you so your family can also enjoy this beautiful season. These projects don't cost much. Most everything can be found outside or around the house.

Fall Color String of Leaves

Usually around Halloween the leaves have come to be rich colors of red, gold, yellow and browns. Grab a basket and the kids and head outside on an adventure to find the prettiest ones. You will also need some yarn and craft glue. I personally like to use an orange or a green yarn, it blends in nicely. Collect as many leaves as possible because all will not make it to the final project. After you have collected your leaves, simply take them home and sort them by color removing any that are to damaged to use. Go ahead and begin tying your leave stems on to the yarn. I usually leave about a half inch between each leave body. Make sure to be careful during this process because these leaves are fragile. As you tie them on, leave the project stretched out on the floor or work place. After all the leaves are attached, go ahead with a craft glue and put a small drop on each knot. This will help minimize any slipping or falling out. Let it dry and your ready to hang it! This is a nice craft to keep around for Thanksgiving as well.

Apple Candle Holders

We all make that trip to the orchard for apples, donuts, and cider. Well here is a craft you can make from some of those apples. It is beautiful and easy. Simply go through that bag of apples and find a few that sit flat on a hard surface. Take an apple corer and make a hole about half way through the apple. Now insert a pillar candle and there it is. If by chance you do not have a nice snug fit with your candle simply wrap a rubber band or some waxed paper around the bottom till it fits. They only last about a week so if you are doing this for a special event then try and do it no more than a couple days before. For older kids you can also let them use the end of a vegetable peeler to carve some designs into the skin and then just apply a little lemon juice to the decoration to help preserve it. Put them on a plate or flat surface and display them proudly.

Nature Inspired Shirts

One of my favorites right here. We do this every year together and it makes for a great memory. You need to purchase some solid color tees in everyone that will participates size. Now for another collecting adventure. Go out to your favorite spot for collecting fall objects. Large leaves, flowers, or sticks that have some definition work best. After everyone has collected their favorite things take them home and lay them flat outside. Have everyone arrange the pieces they collected on the front of the shirt as they want them to appear. Take a spray bottle that you have filled with bleach and spray lightly the outline of each design. Let the bleach work for about one to two minutes and then remove the nature pieces. Thoroughly rinse each shirt in a bucket of water to stop the bleaching process and then wash and dry them. If this is something you would like to make in to a yearly keepsake, I suggest making a stencil from a garbage bag with the year, and placing that at the bottom of the shirt or wherever you would like it to appear. Put that in place before the objects and within a couple hours your family has a new shirt for the season.

Painted Gourds

We enjoy this craft every year from Halloween to Thanksgiving. Fun for the kids and they get to make a mess. Go and get some gourds, the strange shaped ones make for the most interesting designs. Gather all your craft paints and some brushes, sponge pieces, and anything that will make a texture in your paint. I like to use scrunched up plastic bags from the grocery store. Put down some newspaper and let the kids go nuts. There is no rules here, just be creative and paint away. If you are looking for it to be a little more structured than just crazy painting, maybe try having each family member try to paint the resemblance of another family member on their gourd. There is nothing sweeter than having your child paint your likeness.

Have fun with these and get crafty! Your kids will love you for it.

Halloween at Greenfield Village

What an adventure for the family. I would highly recommend that everyone visit Greenfield Village for their Halloween celebration. I took my son this weekend and it was really a site to see. From the 800 carved pumpkins to the creepy fog, right down to the character's costumes. It is honestly something we will remember forever and will visit every year. The price of admission is reasonable. Only $12 for non-members, $10 for members, and children under 2 are free. There is also no extra fee for parking. Well worth the ticket price. They sell tickets on the half hour and they recommend that you arrive a half hour before your ticket time. The children do not come home with a lot of loot but they wont know the difference, it entertains them from beginning to end.

As you enter the Village the first thing you come across is a very spooky grim reaper that is keeping his fire burning and scaring the wits out of the little ones. As you follow along the pumpkin path you come to many people dressed in different themed costumes as well as certain houses that are spruced up for the haunt. They have really outdone themselves here. Along the path you will see little stations set up for treat giving. The treats are mostly donated from Michigan based companies and the first one you receive is a Michigan apple for you to munch along the way.

I don't want to give to much away or ruin any surprises here. I will simply say that you can expect to see some ghosts and goblins, the headless horseman, a palm reader, and some very interesting pirates that have taken a prisoner. Collect your treats as you go and take it all in. Enjoy feeling like a kid again and feel the Halloween. You and your children will be entertained and busy the whole way through, there is no down time, always something to see.

If you get hungry or thirsty along the journey there are a few places you can stop in and purchase a snack or refreshment. They offer souvenirs if you are inclined and don't forget your camera. You will be disappointed if you do. They supply the bag, so all you need to do is dress up the kids and make the trip. You wont be disappointed. This is a rain or shine event, so check the weather for appropriate dress or the need for an umbrella. If you ask me the rain helped to spook it up a bit.

Embrace the spirit of Halloween and make the trip. Stumble through the fog and enjoy the characters and festivities.

Lose your soul?

If you lose your soul then what do you have?

I read this today on someones page. It was there headline. It made me think. How do you lose your soul? What does she mean? Do you lose a piece of your soul every time you sell out for the greater good? Do you lose a piece of your soul every time you break a commandment? How do you lose your soul?

So I thought about this for a few minutes and have come to a few conclusions--please chime in if you like because this boggles me a bit.

I think you may lose a little piece of your soul every time you cross paths with someone you decide to share it with and they jump all over it, kinda like your heart. I think you lose a little piece when you have your children, because they need to borrow some of yours until they grow there own, and then you get it back as they become an incredible person. When I think about my soul, I don't think about this ghostly flying spirit that leaves your body when you pass, although it may be. I think of what makes you who you are. So every time some one betrays you, deceives you, hurts you, or just needs you a part of your soul is missing. When you lose someone you love I think a part of your soul and who you are goes with them, weather you lose them to death or just to someone or something else.

Someone last week told me that I seemed a little cynical. I disagree with that a bit. I don't believe that I am cynical but I do believe that I am guarded and cautious. I am a firm believer that most people are good, this however does not mean that I have to trust you or befriend you right away. I have to look out for myself and my children.

So in closing-- You only have one soul. You only have one heart. What happens when everyone takes a piece of these things? Whats left for me or the people I will meet in the future? Should I share these things with you? Are you soul worthy?

Respect!

This is something that bothers me. Why is it that people can not respect other people? I mean really, how is it that some people can walk around everyday and for some reason believe that they know best, or what is right, or that what they do or say is ok to do or say? I have had just about all I will take from people and their lack of respect for me or my children. I try and try to just let it pass--chock it up to ignorance and just poor raising--but OMG, it is insane. I never claimed to be the nicest person ever or the most respectful, but I will never do something to anyone that is rude or disrespectful (at least not before they do). I have a very hard time getting it through my thick head that some people can just do as they wish with no consequence to how it will impact those around them. Maybe this is in some way my fault, maybe I draw disrespectful people to me somehow. I'm sorry. I know i'm talking in circles here, but I just can not wrap my head around this. Don't you expect people to treat you properly? Maybe thats my problem ---I expect to much from people I befriend. I'm just asking for a little common courtesy, please just do what you say your going to and mean it when you say it. I am tired of being lied to, ignored, pushed aside, and of course --Disrespected-- hence the name of this blog. I have strong memories of my Grandmother taking me aside and teaching me that whole " Do unto others as you would have done unto you" thing. I don't hurt anyone or stomp on their feelings, wishes, or dreams--So why do that to me? It frustrates me beyond belief and I just can't let it go. This is not negotiable for me- Respect me damn it! I deserve that! If not because I am a mother or a nice person or because I try to always do what I say--then do it because I am a person. I would respect you more for it. Be honest with yourself, wouldn't it be easier if you gave a little honesty and respect to everyone you met? After that, it is on them- If they lose your respect and don't deserve to be part of your life anymore then so be it!

So I learned something today---

I learned today that some people can take away your self worth with a sentence, even if just for a moment. Why is it that if someone that you love says something to you remotely close to critical, even if it wasn't meant that way, you can fall apart.

Today was a crappy day for me. I know I can't be the only mother that has a day like this. I have a seven year old boy that knows ALL! Neither of us are morning people and for him this morning, getting ready for school was the end of the world. Well when he is like that in the morning, no matter how I feel, my morning turns to shit. Well it just so happens that this morning I was already in a foul mood. I haven't slept much this last week, my one year old is getting his molars. I woke up with a blinding headache just above my right eye, I had cramps, and was exhausted. So when my day starts like this and then I have a seven year old spouting off words of wisdom to me on the proper way to make his lunch---I may be just a little bitchy and not have the patience that maybe I should have.

I go through the day trying to be as pulled together as I can and then this afternoon I couldn't take anymore. My seven year old was at school still thankfully but the baby was just miserable. I had done everything I could do for him. Motrin, Popsicle, frozen teether, nothing was working and he was just so damn uncomfortable and tired. I finally just put him in his crib and shut his door in the hopes that he would just fall out. As I leave his room and go to try and clean up-- because I haven't been able to put him down all day--my mother is standing and staring at me. I ask her what and her reply is " So , what, You don't like being a mom? Why don't you like your kids?" Seriously WTF? My heart dropped into my stomach. Not because for a second I didn't love my kids but that my mother doubted that I did? And even worse that she was questioning my ability to mother. At least that's what it felt like. I looked at her and just said "what the Hell?" I am fully aware that I may not do it right all the time--no one does, especially not her. But do I ever doubt that she didn't love me when I was a child because she didn't do things perfectly? NO, I don't! Really what am I supposed to think about this? In one sentence she made me doubt almost every decision I had ever made in my children's lives. I felt like the most horrible wretch of a mother. And most importantly how can one mother say that to another mother regardless of relation? I wouldn't say that to any mother unless it was a blatantly obvious fact. If I didn't love my children I wouldn't have custody of them. I have never felt so worthless as I did today because of a stupid comment made by someone that should be supportive, and then to tell me she wasn't trying to hurt my feelings when I began to cry made it all worse. How is someone supposed to internalize a question like that?

So in closing if any of you have had a similar situation arise in your lives please feel free to comment and maybe leave a word of advice. Maybe I am being crazy and selfish, you tell me.

Dating Sites- And the freaks on them

So being recently single I make a decision to put myself out there on a free dating site. Maybe the first mistake was that it was free-lol. The first person to contact me ended up being a friend of a friend which was very weird. I hadn't seen this friend in probably ten years and new him well. I made the assumption that since the Dater(as we will call him) was a friend of my old friend he couldn't be all bad right!?! Guess again! So we talked on the phone for about two weeks and let me tell you he was a sweetheart. He called a couple times a day and we learned quite a bit about each other. Finally he asked if I wanted to do dinner. I was very excited, I thought " wow-- could this be it? Is it possible that I could meet someone first time around?"

So I met him for dinner on a Thursday night. I figured that was safe, a casual dinner and drinks and then homeward bound I would be. So he left the decision of where to go to me. I picked a place that I enjoy and he agreed. Two hours before the date he called and asked if we could go somewhere else. The Dater apparently hated the place I picked and wanted to go to his favorite place. Alright buddy, whatever, your paying.

We had dinner and a couple drinks and then it was time to go. He invited me to his house for a beer and to show me some stuff he was working on. I hadn't dated in 9 years, how was I supposed to know that this was code for---I just spent $30 whole dollars on dinner, now we must have sex. I really was shocked. Granted I am no prude and it's not like I haven't done anything stupid like this in my younger bar fly days, but really I didn't even know what to think. Here is a guy that sells himself as Mr. Respect and then turns into an ass.

So enough about that. My horrible first date experience. I have more.

I have had two good experiences from this site I am on. I made contact with one man that has been very interesting. Nothing has really prospered from it but a very nice friendship. We still have not met in person and maybe never will but I do enjoy IMing him. He is very funny and a great guy to run ideas off of. We talk about twice a week for a little bit in the evening and it makes me smile. This friendship has given me back a little of my trust in myself. I now know that I am capable of reading a profile and deciding if what he has to offer is something I may be interested in. Second good experience is somewhat surreal. I was browsing my matches and saw a profile with no picture but a very sweet headline. I read the profile, it was very short, and I knew instantly who this was. A very sweet guy that I had dated a few years back. I did not send him anything for the fear of being embarrassed in the event that I was wrong. A couple days later he sent me a note that he knew me. We have now gone on a few dates and talk regularly. I really enjoy his company and if anything I have rekindled an old friendship.

Now about the real freaks that I have found. Literally a week ago I received the nicest letter. This man(the Freak) went on in his letter about our compatibility. He quoted things from my profile. Told me why he believed we would be compatible and all the things he was looking for in a lifelong partner--because that is what he was there for. LOL So in his letter he included his email address and IM id. I added him and we began to IM. Within two minutes he asked to share photos ( which I have learned is normal, people want to see if its really you because you should have a bunch of pics on your computer) so I agreed and we began to share photos. Well low and behold as I am adding my pics to share here comes about six pics of him. The first two are normal everyday pics with his dog and stuff and then there it was. Yes, pictures of his member, manhood, little friend, whatever you choose to call it. I really didn't know what to do. I prefer to see the penis before I am about to do something with it, not two minutes after I begin a conversation with you. It makes me wonder, if I had met him in a bar would he have whipped it out two minutes in to talking? Anyways he then asked where my dirty picks were. I'm sorry I didn't know this was a prerequisite for meeting people on this site. I must have skipped that memo. I replied that I didn't have anything to share with him and even if I did have pics of that nature he did not qualify as someone I would share them with. So to make a long story short, he called me rude. I simple responded that I didn't ask to see it therefore I was not required to show. Needless to say I deleted him from my IM contacts and he still tried to contact me, Thank God for the ignore button.

So ladies and gents-- in closing these are some of my random thoughts on Internet dating.
---Don't do or say anything you wouldn't do or say in person.
---keep in mind that the person on the other end of the conversation may not appreciate pictures of you privates
---Trust your instincts-if it sounds to good to be true---well you know
---Look at each contact as a stranger and freak until they prove themselves to not be
---I believe you can find real people looking for real relationships on them- ya just gotta find em
---Maybe you need to pay on these services to find the Quality
---Be safe, Be cautious, Be yourself and maybe it can happen

Single again!

Well here I am single again. Mother of a seven year old and one year old. Two beautiful boys. I guess you could call them typical, if running around like maniacs and destroying anything that has value is typical-lol.

So here is a little back story so you know where I am coming from.

I was with my ex for nine years. Nine very trying and confusing years. I am a self described lifer. When I make a commitment to something I do everything in my power to maintain it and make it work, whether it's a job, relationship, craft project, I just keep on trying. I won't get into to many details here about my relationship with my ex, there is plenty of time for that in the future. Let's just say that He was an ass and I was an angel. At least in my eyes that's the way it was. If you were to ask him now he would say the same. He still calls my son everyday and when I answer the first thing he does is apologize for the way it all worked out and how he treated me. It is really just to bad that it took me walking away from him with our two boys for him to figure it out. We had a very painful and emotionally disabled relationship. So no surprise that the break up was the same. I will expand on these issues in the future I am sure.

What I am doing on this site is simple. I want to leave my mark on the single society. I want to share here what I am going through in the single world. From dating to working and just trying to find a single girlfriend to go out with-since it seems that everyone on earth is now married and looking at me like a failure. I want to be a sounding board for single mothers everywhere that can't figure out how to cope. I will be sharing my experiences in a honestly blunt manner in hopes that someone else can learn from my mistakes and experience as they to begin a journey down this crazy road of balance.

Stay tuned for future posts such as:
---Dating sites-- and the freaks on them
---Looking for work and trying to convince them that you are capable
---Learning lessons on motherhood when your doing it alone

I believe I have something to say, it may not apply to all of you but hopefully everyone can gain a little insight or lesson from it.