Lose your soul?

If you lose your soul then what do you have?

I read this today on someones page. It was there headline. It made me think. How do you lose your soul? What does she mean? Do you lose a piece of your soul every time you sell out for the greater good? Do you lose a piece of your soul every time you break a commandment? How do you lose your soul?

So I thought about this for a few minutes and have come to a few conclusions--please chime in if you like because this boggles me a bit.

I think you may lose a little piece of your soul every time you cross paths with someone you decide to share it with and they jump all over it, kinda like your heart. I think you lose a little piece when you have your children, because they need to borrow some of yours until they grow there own, and then you get it back as they become an incredible person. When I think about my soul, I don't think about this ghostly flying spirit that leaves your body when you pass, although it may be. I think of what makes you who you are. So every time some one betrays you, deceives you, hurts you, or just needs you a part of your soul is missing. When you lose someone you love I think a part of your soul and who you are goes with them, weather you lose them to death or just to someone or something else.

Someone last week told me that I seemed a little cynical. I disagree with that a bit. I don't believe that I am cynical but I do believe that I am guarded and cautious. I am a firm believer that most people are good, this however does not mean that I have to trust you or befriend you right away. I have to look out for myself and my children.

So in closing-- You only have one soul. You only have one heart. What happens when everyone takes a piece of these things? Whats left for me or the people I will meet in the future? Should I share these things with you? Are you soul worthy?

Respect!

This is something that bothers me. Why is it that people can not respect other people? I mean really, how is it that some people can walk around everyday and for some reason believe that they know best, or what is right, or that what they do or say is ok to do or say? I have had just about all I will take from people and their lack of respect for me or my children. I try and try to just let it pass--chock it up to ignorance and just poor raising--but OMG, it is insane. I never claimed to be the nicest person ever or the most respectful, but I will never do something to anyone that is rude or disrespectful (at least not before they do). I have a very hard time getting it through my thick head that some people can just do as they wish with no consequence to how it will impact those around them. Maybe this is in some way my fault, maybe I draw disrespectful people to me somehow. I'm sorry. I know i'm talking in circles here, but I just can not wrap my head around this. Don't you expect people to treat you properly? Maybe thats my problem ---I expect to much from people I befriend. I'm just asking for a little common courtesy, please just do what you say your going to and mean it when you say it. I am tired of being lied to, ignored, pushed aside, and of course --Disrespected-- hence the name of this blog. I have strong memories of my Grandmother taking me aside and teaching me that whole " Do unto others as you would have done unto you" thing. I don't hurt anyone or stomp on their feelings, wishes, or dreams--So why do that to me? It frustrates me beyond belief and I just can't let it go. This is not negotiable for me- Respect me damn it! I deserve that! If not because I am a mother or a nice person or because I try to always do what I say--then do it because I am a person. I would respect you more for it. Be honest with yourself, wouldn't it be easier if you gave a little honesty and respect to everyone you met? After that, it is on them- If they lose your respect and don't deserve to be part of your life anymore then so be it!